A new song

I just gave up tonight on making/forcing/urging Audrey to sleep. I finally picked her up and took her into our air conditioned bedroom and laid on the bed with her and just cried.

I am weary.

And Audrey is not.

Of course, once I picked her up and laid her next to me she began her playful noises and the reaching for her toes. She eventually started singing this special song that had percussion accompanying it. It went something like this: "High pierced sing-song, kind of cute noises that kind of sound like a bird squawking--to blowing bubbles with her bottom lip and then making farting noises."

It made me laugh.

After about a half hour of her entertaining me and helping me forget my weariness and deep, deep desire to escape this world and go be with Jesus, I put her in her crib, swaddled her real tight, kissed her on the head and told her I loved her, and wouldn't you know? I tip toe out of the room and I hear her making more farting noises with her lips with the pacifier in her mouth.

I smiled again and took a deep breath.